I can’t go five minutes without thinking about you. I want to spend my life with you. I miss you when you leave, and I don’t think I could function without you. When I see those eyes, those blue fucking eyes, the world stops. Everything that seemed so important is suddenly irrelevant. You make everything okay, like I know, no matter what, I’ll be safe. When I wake up in the morning, your my first thought. Throughout the day, your all I think about. I walk into a room, and I think about you, forgetting what I was doing there in the first place. You mean the world to me. I was so sad tonight that I had to leave, because I never want to leave your side. I smile every time I think about you, and I would do anything for you.  There’s this fear inside of me, and when your around its gone. What do you mean to me? Everything.

I love you Dimples.

Andrew

I won’t hurt you. I won’t leave you. I’ll stay by your side. I’ll protect you. I promise, I won’t ever let you go. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and I couldn’t imagine not seeing you everyday. I can see that you’ve been mistreated, but trust me, I’ll keep you safe. From the second I saw you I knew that I needed you in my life. I woke up and an angel was sitting next to me, oh wait, that was you. We had some small talk, you asked me about music and movies, so I answered. I couldn’t have known at the time, but I would fall so deeply in love with you. The dim lighting was perfect to see the wrinkles your smile forms just below your checks. That was the first thing I fell in love with, your dimples. When you smile, it makes me feel safe. I suppose that’s why I like your dimples, because its a sign that your happy. Whenever someone has told me that they love me, I would ignore it, pretend like I believed it, but you, I trust you. Its weird, but I know that your word is good. No matter how much I doubt myself and you, I cannot find find a reason to run away. When I look at those piercing blue eyes I can see the pain you’ve endured, your pure soul, and I see my future with you. You’re it. You’re all I’ve ever wanted. 

I love you Dimples.

From the moment I met you, I knew I needed you. I hid behind my sunglasses with my tired eyes, while yours admired me. You made small talk, and at some point i thought you were just being polite, but little did i know you were just overly consumed by my presence. I havent ever met a man like you. Something special, something that I know deep inside I can never let go. My dreams and goals fear you. You are the only person on this planet who could bring me down, and if thats the case, then i apologize in advance. My destiny has already been fortold, so if you are apart of it, then you must keep up. Babe, I’m going places, and I’d like it if you came along with me.

I want a guy who’d be proud to say “Yeah, that’s my girl.”

Sometimes I wonder if you’d take me back. I keep thinking about you, you with her. Its disgusting but I keep hoping I’ll see your  face again. You are the only person who has ever made me feel this  way. I guess I need to find someone else in order to forget you, then why haven’t I found someone else. And I know you still care about me, even if you wouldn’t admit it. Its terrible that I would even consider dating you again, but I loved you so fucking much.

Forever alone

When you talk to a guy who doesn’t know what you look like and you totally hit it off, then they see what you look like and you never talk again.

How could you fucking leave me? You were supposed to protect me and love me. You said, you promised you would never let me go. You lied. You fucking asshole! You lied to me! You loved me, I never fucking loved you! Its not my fault that you fell in love with someone who was incapable of loving you back! Maybe you should think next time you fall in love with your best friend.  Fuck you, fuck you for making me want you to stay, and fuck you for not caring enough to try after you fucked everything up! You asked me to try so I did, but you won’t fucking try for me. 

I am completely alone.

I should get an award, lost my two best friends in two months.